However far I have run and however far I have come, some days have more sadness than others.

Loneliness sort of creeps up…

Part of every misery is, so to speak, the misery’s shadow or reflection: the fact that you don’t merely suffer but have to keep on thinking about the fact that you suffer. I not only live each endless day in grief, but live each day thinking about living each day in grief. CS Lewis

That was true before, it is mostly easier now.

Grief and memories and sadness still lurk around.

There in the shadows.